林俊杰 - 我还想她

泪水 将我淹没 到底谁该难过

究竟 是谁放掉 这段感情

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺

就成了枷锁

现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她 我不爱他

笑著难过 自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎

横了心 说真心谎话

别告诉她 我还想她

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口

就让沉默 代替所有回答

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺

就成了枷锁

现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她 我不爱他

笑著难过 自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎

横了心 说真心谎话

别告诉她 我还想她

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口

就让沉默 代替所有回答

我不爱 我不痛 我不懂

我的心 早已掏空

真心话 言不由衷

请告诉她 我不爱他

笑著难过 自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎

横了心 说真心谎话

别告诉她 我还想她

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口

就让沉默 代替所有回答

别告诉她 我还想她

就让沉默 代替所有回答

Sad........

I feel sad..i don't like to wait...just give me an answer no matter is a good news or not. I just know to wait but beside wait what else i can do? Nothing..

Wait wait wait..............................

期待爱

林俊杰&金莎-期待爱

My Life 一直在等待

空荡的口袋

想在里面放 一份爱

Why 总是被打败

真的好无奈

其实我 实实在在

不管帅不帅

想要找回来

自己的节拍

所以这一次

我要勇敢 大声说出来

期待 期待你发现我的爱

无所不在 我自然而然的关怀

你的存在 心灵感应的方向

我一眼就看出来

是因为爱

我猜 你早已发现我的爱

绕几个弯 越靠近越明白

不要走开

幸福的开始 就是放手去爱

有效日期

我发觉原来在我们的日常生活样样东西都有expiry date. 即使是人与人之间也不例外。朋友久没联络会疏远，感情会随风而释。。什么东西会是永久？

突然觉得很感慨。。也许该学会珍惜拥有，不在乎天长地久。。

i'm still a kid :p

I should zz now as i need to wake up early but i can't control my fingers, feel that must write this down. Today happen 2 incidents which make me very happy and feel like want to kill people.

I not plan to remember the incident that make me angry. In short, i can say that that's me. I always try hard to achieve my dream. You might not agree with my action but i think what i do is correct. I just don't want to regret in future. I can secure my future, it is in my hand.

My mom went for trip, left papa n i in house only. Today is the first day i talk so much with my dad. I prepared food for my dad, helped him to clean all the dirty plates etc. Normally i hate to do housework but i quite enjoy today. Maybe when you use your heart to do something or do something for your love one, everything will be so sweet and touch.

I talked about 1 hour + with him, although it was just normal talk but i rarely talk so much with him after i grow up. I always impatient when i teach my family members but i teach my dad computer very patient today, teach him step by step...ha... Maybe all this while i rarely talk with him, i think after i entered secondary school, our conversation just about very formal matter, money, fetch me to school, tuition etc.

My mom is correct, we should spend more time with my dad. Actually our relationship is good but we just rarely communicate. Maybe my dad likes to hide in room too much, while my mom always scolds us since we still a kid. Haha..so we already used to argue with mom. :p

I still remember that sometime my dad will help me to do colouring when i was in primary school or teach me how to do math. I like to sit beside him while i still a kid and mimic the way he reads newspaper. Ha! We all grow up now and my sis and bro are not here always, we all go for our dreams... I wan to say that no matter what happen, house in still da best. When you are unhappy or in trouble, just go home, it is da safest and warmest place.

Don't know why, my tears keep dropping, maybe i really enjoy the moment with my dad just now, feel so touch. Normally my dad zz at 9pm but he accompanied me until 12am just now. Ha! I love my family. All the unhappy incident just gone. Family is da best medicine.

(p/s: feel like wan to zz with my dad and manja him like a kid..haha, can i?)

Happy Deepavali

Happy Deepavali to all Hindu and Happy Holiday to all......

After today, i left 5 more weeks only..time flies......................Count down for the scary moment. I'll temporary away after monday. I mostly won't online already..sob sob...

See you all when i come back again...

Take care to all my friends, if got time can drop me a sms to make sure that i still alive. Haha..Sayonara!!!!!!!!!!!

生日快乐

彷佛你就在我身边
等待了一年 又一年
对你的思念
三百六十五天
我只等 这一天
勇敢地把从前
情人节快乐
变成
祝你生日快乐

I LOVE YOU
说不出口的倾诉
I MISS YOU
让挂念 代替了 相处
瞬间是永远 谈情变祝福
可惜 甜言也带苦


I LOVE YOU
是最完美的结束
I MISS YOU
一辈子 靠今天 接触
瞬间是永远 谈情变祝福
可惜 都於事无补

今夜 有人陪你庆祝
不枉 我一年的孤独
请你 原谅我 不多写一个字
像 普通人糢糊
多一字 多份痛
今夜 我不想哭
Happy Birthday To You
Happy Birthday To You

Another love song which i like a lot. If you watch this movie before then you will quite familiar with this song.

My friend's mom said that the ending of this movie is very lousy like hang half way. For me, this is the most beautiful ending. Although the guy is in another world but inside her heart he still like beside her always.

I cried a lot in this movie, ha. I not very remember the plot already as i watched this movie few years ago. Although i feel that this movie is quite romantic but i don't like this type of love. The ending is too sad, she just live in her wonder world and never realise that he won't come back to her anymore. Anyway, sometime is better to know less.

I like to read love novel but i never imagine myself as one of the heroin until i found this 2 books. I love this kind of love story..These are 爱尔兰咖啡 and 寄生虫. I read these in my uni time. Up to date i still like this kind of love story..ha..I read few times but never feel bored.

Argh...if got time i wan to read 寄生虫 again. kaka... 2 people is so near yet so far.. Actually both of them already got special feeling among each other but both of them never realise it..until an accident made them together. I think sometime people is tend to like that, we never cherish things beside us until you realise that it is no longer belongs to you anymore.

Just same like this movie, the guy only know that she is da one he loves most when he is going to die.

沿海公路的出口

Another song that made me listen for n times everyday..Don't know why, i like this song very much.. maybe i'm those type of people who like sad song.

This song basically sound very lonely..sob sob..how cham...

用一根火柴燒一場蜃樓　借這場大雨讓自己逃走
荒茫公路無人的漂泊　寂寞海嘯把我捲走

用一段感情換一個朋友　每一句再見割一道傷口
躲在萬劫不復的街頭　微笑參透覆水難收

＊倘若說放一次手　就像咳一個嗽
我又何苦　在乎得不到的溫柔

我坐在公路的出口　等待天黑以後無邊的寂寞
連想你都是種殘酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落　緊抱一個醉生夢死的枕頭
游不出回憶　卻學不會放手　怎麼走

REPEAT＊

＊我坐在公路的出口　等待天黑以後無邊的寂寞
連想你都是種殘酷切磋

我目送沿海的日落　緊抱一個醉生夢死的枕頭
游不出回憶　卻學不會放手　怎麼走

Thanks to my song provider.

Time Flies..

Tik Tak Tik Tak...time flies without sign and signal....going to November now. The scary moment is nearer and nearer, my heart beat become faster and faster.

I'm very tension..because i found out that there are a lot of things which i don't understand and time is the main factor. I won't give up easily, i will endure everything and fight until the end. No matter how's the result, i already did my best.

Fight................................ Please give me a lot of support. The best support is let me alone and don't disturb me so that i can fully 100% concentrate. My temper is bad, like to scold people a lot recently. To those victims, i'm very sorry, i don't really mean it. My EQ is low only :p

very sien....again....

Very sien again...exam is coming...got a lot of things to study..job searching but don't have much opportunity, maybe economy is not good. A lot of company is freezing now...haih...sien...

How good if money can fall from sky..dreaming....ya, is late now, can dreaming....

Am i too choosy? I dunno, i just don't like job hopping. Pray hard......must po pi me........

Happy :)

Feel happy today, long time don't have this feel already :) A call from my long time no contact friend. Talk a lot of nonsense, from north to south, from west to east..haha

If not because of need to study, i sure will go for a movie. Congrats to my friend on finally complete the MBA after struggling for some time.

Selamat hari Raya

Raya holiday is over, my brother gonna go back to KL this Saturday. October now, really have to do some planning to fully utilise my remaining months.

Feel relief after settled it, finally can concentrate on my plans and tasks that wait for me to complete.

Work hard and good luck to myself :)

Funny people

Rearrange my blog and delete some comment, saved some blog to draft instead of showing in public. Although blog is a place to write and view our comment but not everybody is open to accept.

I think he goes crazy today, don't want to bother him. Leave a comment said that i bluff him so i just deleted it. If don't want to believe then just go ahead but don't pretend to understand me well. Everybody has their own right to choose what to say and not to say. You taught who you are? I not even telling everything to my best friend, how about you? Everybody has their own secret.

I start to feel that you are very annoying. I think if this condition persists i'll start to hate you. I scare of login to my MSN because scare of you. Sometime i play with my friend and put some funny status and you start to ask why, what.... do i need to explain to you? My friend leave me comment in facebook, you can ask question. Pengsan... Hmm...

Yes, i admit that you are a nice guy and help me a lot too but ..... no comment.... If possible, i want to be Sueh Li No 2.

For you, i appreciate that you continue to be my friend but please don't make scare of you. I'm like that, i don't like people ask me a lot of personal question unless i willing to share and please don't act that understand me well.

You already made me angry of you recently and please stop it. I rather you feel that i bluff you and leave me alone and continue to be hi and bye friend.

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A old song but i think it is nice. This song is my ex-roommate's favourite song. Ha!

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍 我不能
别再认真
忘了我的人
离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问 我不能
拥在怀中
直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问 我不能
拥在怀中
直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

Haha..this is not my feeling and story...just think of this song then i post it in my blog. I'm very clear that what i'm doing now. Although some people might not agree and don't know what i'm doing but i'm clear of my way.

Work hard for my target!

对不起，谢谢

看了你的部落格，我无言相对。。只希望你能早日接受事实。

有许多事情是不必说了再说，我希望这是最后一次。我只能说谢谢你成为我的朋友，谢谢你的帮助。可是友情和爱情无法相同并论。每当我开心，伤心。。第一个浮现我的脑海的人不是你。每当我没事做，想找个人去玩，对象也不是你。每当我想找人聊天，kacau 的人也不是你。 也许事实是残酷但能早日接受事实是对你最好的帮助。

你会是我的朋友。。谢谢你的帮忙及鼓励但对不起，我无法接受你的美意。

New robbery techniques

I not sure whether you guys receive this mail before but no harm to share. The safety over here is very poor recently, must be more careful and alert to surrounding.

(1) Today i passed by a building which has an ATM machine. There was an old man looking at me and suddenly called me. He said he doesn't know how to read, so he gave me an ATM card and asked me to help him take money from the ATM machine. I answered him 'NO!! If you need help, ask the security to help you.' Then he said 'never mind.. ' and just continue to find other people to help him...
REMEMBER : ATM machines have CCTV. If you help him, and later he says you have robbed him or stole his ATM card, or even his ATM card wasn't his too. So please be careful for these frauds.

(2) When the house electricity suddenly goes off, seeing from the windows that my neighbours still have lights, went out my house to check the Meter Box. But once i open the door, a knife was pointing at the door to stop me from closing it. And they robbed and injured us.

REMEMBER : Even though your electricity suddenly goes off, DO NOT open your door immediately. Look around to see if there is anything unusual or sounds.

(3) This is another story. You think you had heard it before, but this is slightly different. Its about a girl, she saw a kid by the roadside crying. When she asked the kid, the kid said he was lost and wanted her to take him home. The kid even gave her a paper which he said it was his house address. So she took him home. But when she ring the bell on the door. She was shocked by pressing the door bell with high-voltage electric. Once she woke up, she was naked in an empty room.

REMEMBER : Being such a compassion person might not be a good thing. Pass this on and girls, especially, please be careful..AND DON'T BE TOO GOOD!!

(4) I was at the ATM machine to take my money. Behind me, there was an old lady asked me whether i'm able to take my money or not, because she said there's a button might be spoiled, and i don't know since when a small girl came beside me. The small girl was squeezing to my side but i didn't notice, i thought she was just naughty and playful. But then, the small girl put her hand at the hole of the ATM machine where the money comes out, ready to take my money. I felt something wrong and immediately push the small girl away. Then i thought, the small girl and the old lady cooperate together to take my money. The old lady distracted me so that the small girl can take my money away.

REMEMBER: Be VERY CAREFUL when you are at an ATM machine and be alert for anyone suspicious around you.

5) My parents are retired and they stay at home. One afternoon, there was a young stranger said his motorcycle has no more petrol and the petrol station is too far, it's hard to push the motorcycle for such a long distance, so he asked my parents for an empty coke bottle to buy petrol. He said he will pay 2, 3 bucks for it. So my mum took one coke bottle for him. He really did took out money from his pocket, but it was a RM 100 note, and even let my mum to find change for him.But luckily my mum was smart, she said just take and go.

REMEMBER : obviously that note is fake!! Who would want to pay for a stupid empty coke bottle!! Its OBVIOUS to know that that starnger is a fraud!!

(6) this happened in Bali . A newly married couple were having their honeymoon at the hotel. When both are in the changing room, the wife suddenly gone missing. The husband was very anxious and went around to find her. He asked the hotel staffs to help him find her too. Then he thought his wife was just playing hide and seek or wat. So he went back and waited for his wife. After a few hours, he decided to call the police. 3 weeks has passed, there were no news about his missing wife. So he went back and his honeymoon just ended up like that. He was so disappointed and has no mood to work and so he went to travel to other places. Few years later, he came back to Bali , to watch 'FREAK SHOW' in an old house. He saw a dirty and rusty metal cage, there was a lady without limbs, body including the face, full of scars. When she was distorted on the ground, she gives out a sound of a monster-like voice. when he saw her face, he was shocked. He could not recognise the face anymore, her missing wife's face with a red birthmark.

(7) this happened in shanghai. Few yeas ago, a girl reported to the police that her cousin sister was missing in the shopping complex. But after 5 years, one of her friend found her cousin sister begging beside one of the street in Bangkok , Thailand . The worst thing is that her cousin sister has no more limbs and her body is tied to a lamp post with a Shackle (metal chain).

(8) Let's just shorten this story. DO NOT open your house door when you hear some sound of a BABY CRYING!! It might be a trap! Women in the house must be alert in these case. The police said it will be a murderer using a recorder with the baby crying sound to attract your attention. These normally happens at night and when you are only alone in the house. G IR LS, especially, please be careful.

9) i read an email that was sent by my friend. Her friend, which is known as A, went to Luo Hu Commercial City with 2 friends, B and C. Luo Hu Commercial City is Shenzhen counterfeit goods distribution center, there are many people there, its also near to the ShenZhen train station and Hong Kong's Luo Hu Port.

Its says, C wants to go to the toilet. So A and B waited outside. But then after they waited for so long, they felt weird and went into the toilet to ask her to hurry up. But once they went in, there were nobody inside there. Both were scared as they called C's phone but no one answered. So they called the police. The police asked them whether they had saw anyboby suspicious went into the toilet. Both said there were none and its impossible to bring an alive person with more then 100 kg out of the toilet without them noticing. Then A remember there was a cleaner pushing a trolley in, and then came back out...the police told them this is not the 1st time happening. The police has already suspect a gang of criminals that always attacks the toilet in a complex where many people are. They use cleaners to kidnap or trafficking in human organs.

REMEMBER : please be careful when using the toilet. For anybody, not only girls, boys too!! Do not go to the wash room or toilet ALONE!!

Please at least have a partner with you.

祝我生日快乐

11.02pm now, another 58 min then my big day will over. Nothing special happen today, everything in peace. Anyway, nothing mean good thing :)

My birthday wish is hope that everything will go smoothly beside those n years never change wishes. Pray hard........Thank you on all the wishes, i really feel touch..hehe :p

My wish list:
1) Get a good and high pay job
2) Pass all my ACCA papers in first attempt

N years never change list:
1) Everybody is healthy and happy.

Luck luck faster come :p

我很任性

我不喜欢就是不喜欢，请别叫我做我不喜欢的事。
我不要就是不要， 请别逼我要。
无法忍受我的任性就给我滚！别想改变我！

我爱做我爱的事，请别阻挡我。
我爱我行我素，请别来劝我。
无法忍受我的任性就给我滚！别想阻止我！

我爱但不爱我的人请一巴一巴的刮醒我。
爱我但我不爱的人请别来烦我。
爱我和我爱的人。。我不知道。。

Very sien...

Don't know what to say and how to describe my feeling. I wan to put down everything and go to a place which nobody knows me. I wan go to a place which has beautiful landscape, nice trees, nice river and beautiful scenery.

Arrh...what happen to me? I don't like current of me. Sien ar.......

Fate

從前有個書生 , 和未婚妻約好在某年某月某日結婚 .
到那一天 , 未婚妻卻嫁給了別人 . 書生受此打擊 , 一病不起 .
家人用盡各種辦法都無能為力 , 眼看奄奄一息 .
這時 , 路過一游方僧人 , 得知情況 , 決定點化一下他 .

僧人到他床前 , 從懷裡摸出一面鏡子叫書生看 .
書生看到茫茫大海 , 一名遇害的女子一絲不掛地躺在海灘上 .
路過一人 , 看一眼 , 搖搖頭 , 走了 ....
又路過一人 , 將衣服脫下 , 給女屍蓋上 , 走了 ....
再路過一人 , 過去 , 挖個坑 , 小心翼翼把屍體掩埋了 ............
疑惑間 , 畫面切換 . 書生看到自己的未婚妻 . 洞房花燭 ,
被她丈夫掀起蓋頭的瞬間 ...
書生不明所以 .

僧人解釋道 , 那具海灘上的女屍 , 就是你未婚妻的前世 .
你是第 2 個路過的人 , 曾給過他一件衣服 . 她今生和你相戀 , 只為還你一個情 .
但是她最終要報答一生一世的人 , 是最後那個把她掩埋的人 , 那人就是他現在的丈夫 .

書生大悟 , 唰地從床上做起 , 病癒 !
幾年前 , 初戀的愛人去世時 , 我痛不欲生 .
有朋友就找來這故事開導我 , 讓我釋懷不少 .
也許 , 她來到這個世界上 , 就是為了還我一片情吧 ..
她做完了她想做的事 , 就走了 .
以後 , 我都用這個故事開導身邊的朋友 .

緣這個東西 , 是最不可思議的 .
電影 ' 不見不散 ' 的主題歌這樣唱道 :

' 這世界說大就大 , 說小就小 .
就算是我們今生的約定 , 也要用一生去尋找 ....'
緣分這東西不可強求 . 該你的 , 早晚是你的 :
不該你的 , 怎麼努力 , 也得不到 .
但無論任何時候 , 我們都不要絕望 .
不要放棄自己對真 , 善 , 美的愛情追求 .

人生的價值 , 在某種意義上講 , 就是愛和被愛的成熟 .
當真愛來臨 , 如果也就成熟了 .
隨緣 ............
　隨意 ............ ...
　　隨遇 ..........
　　　隨喜 ...........

懂得『珍惜、知足、感恩』，就擁有了生命滴光彩
在我的內心裡，有著一份感覺 . 感動與感恩之情，
在此時此刻腦海裡出現著你的影像，
讓我也想要和你一起分享這一篇文章，
因為你是我的朋友我的家人

p/s: touching, copy from internet

一天到晚游泳的鱼

情愿困在你怀中
困在你温柔
不想一个人寂寞
无边漂泊
就象鱼儿水里游
你的心河流向我
不眠不休的追求
一天到晚游泳的鱼啊
鱼不停游
一天到晚想你的人啊
爱不停休
从来不想回头
不问天长地久
因为我的爱覆水难收
多少喜乐在心中 慢慢游
多少忧愁不肯走 流向心头
就像鱼儿水里游
永远不会问结果
他们知道爱情没尽头
一天到晚游泳的鱼啊
鱼不停游
一天到晚想你的人啊
爱不停休
沧海多么辽阔
再也不能回首
只要你心里永远留我

哑子吃黄连有苦说不出，在面对与逃避之间我选择了逃避。原因我没勇气去面对因为我没有信心。 天生是个失败者。好想逃跑。 时间应该可以冲淡一切，如果时间是良药，那是几久呢？一年？十年？

在中学时期就爱这首歌，但是现在我却明白了这首歌的心情。错中复杂。

对于他，我还是希望你放我走吧，那是给我最好的礼物。

中秋节

中秋节是一家人团圆的日子，是农历的八月十五号. 中秋节的时候，中国人赏月现在人们也在节日喝酒和祝福他们亲朋好友。

中秋节有几个传说，最有名的是嫦娥的故事，那个女神住在月亮里。很久以前地球上太热了这样因为有十个太阳结果很多人热死了。 一天嫦娥的丈夫射下了九个太阳， 地球天气变得凉快了。 后来他偷一个女神的仙丹， 这样他永远不会死，可是他是暴君， 所以嫦娥偷吃她了丈夫的仙丹， 这样他就不会再欺压百姓了。 嫦娥把仙丹吃了以后， 飞到了月亮上， 她的丈夫留在了地球上。虽然他可以射下月亮，但是他不想， 因为他太爱嫦娥了，他不想杀他妻子。 这样，人们在这一天纪念她。

中秋节有很长的历史。商朝的时候，人们就开始过中秋节。周朝的时候，随著社会发展, 人们举行月亮舞会，迎接冬天的来，而这个时候也是水果蔬菜收获的季节。 从周朝到唐朝，中国人越来越喜欢中秋节，但是是在宋朝，人们开始做月饼，月饼至今还是中秋节传统食物。也是在这个时候， 人们给亲戚送月饼。 明朝和清朝，不同的地方有不同的风俗习惯，比方说挂灯笼, 还有种中秋树。

see this article from the net which talk about mooncake festival. Today, just a normal day for me, study and rest at home plus study group in library. The most interesting part is i not even eat any single piece of mooncake today. Very weird. Maybe the economy nowadays is not as good as previous year so this year's celebration consider very quiet. People nowadays are more concern about the latest ISA case after Ahmad Ismail's issue. If Ahmad Ismail's case is a tsunami then the reporter's incident is the after shock effect.

Today is Sept 14, 2 more days to come. What will happen on Sept 16? I don't know and can't predict, as this is their political techniques. I'm just a normal citizen who looks for harmony and safe lifestyle only.

One of my friend who is furthering her study in Netherlands asked that the moon out there is same with Malaysia? From scientific view is yes but in every occasion, we might feel different as we don't have the most familiar scene and view around. The feeling is different.

I miss my sis and bro.

Parlimen Malaysia - You Tak Suka, You Keluar Dari Malaysia

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBGQADED_Mw

Wow...so interesting..please read the comments too..haha...Really sia sui la..let the whole world see this video.

...

Dunno y, i feel quite tired now but still don't feel like to zz...

Surfed jobstreet just now but like don't have any job suit for me. I really have to work in big four? I'm so reluctant to go back to my previous lifeless lifestyle. Never mind, still have time, sure can get a job which is suit for me.

Pray hard for my future and exam :)

Angels Brought Me Here

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here

my long time favourite song..

愿你一切安好。

你对我说你已无法控制你的眼泪，总是情不自禁的掉泪，常以泪洗脸到入眠，原因就是他。身为旁观者，我们会对你说是时候放手了但对于当事者就不是那么轻易的说放了就放。
他已大方的和他人约会，难道还能不放手吗？心是伤了但是也要有梦醒了的时候。。再持续下去只有伤心，痛心。。不要再执着了。。
对于已失去的爱情就让他去吧，大方的祝福他们，愿他们一切安好。心也是该收回了，一切将会是我们美好的回忆，他走过了我们生命的痕迹。
再见了。。再多的不舍也要让你走了。。

I love my country.

My grandma is in penang for few days. My parent visited her just now while waiting for me. One of my relative is applying migration to Australia currently. We thought that grandma will feel sad as all her "cucu" are separate throughout the world like Singapore, Hong Kong, UK etc and now another one is going to Australia. Surprisingly, she feel happy as we all have this opportunity to explore ourselves outside instead of always "hide" in Malaysia.

My mom always asks my sis not to come back also since she is enjoying her life over there. All the while, my mom likes me to stay with her as my bro n sis are not around but she suggested me to go out after i complete my ACCA. I really surprise that my mom will say this to me.
After a while, i understand that not my mom doesn't want us to stay together but is feel a bit disappointed to our country's MP. Although we already independence for 51 years but Chinese still treated as migrant , what a disappointment. Not only me, my parent are born n grow up in Malaysia too. I wonder why all this issues still can't be solved. Maybe our country still far behind developed country and not open minded. US can accept Obama as their "potential" president. Not to say as a PM, normal rights and respect from our beloved friends also is a dream for us.
What i can say is that more and more knowledgeable Malaysian are working abroad, the reason behind this issues is known by everybody.

"Bukit Bendera Umno division chief Ahmad Ismail has claimed that his decision not to apologise for his racially inflammatory remarks has received “tremendous support” from Malay-Muslim groups."

Can't comment too much over here, if not ISA has their rights to catch us.

Wondering in library..:P

Today is wednesday, as usual, study in library after class. I'm a bit unhappy today but it won't affect my morale to pursue for my dream but it really inspire me a lot. I met 1 of my old schoolmate in class yesterday. She is my secondary schoolmate, eventually i met her again in college not long ago. In our conversation, i feel that she is really commited to her job and ACCA. She works as an auditor in KPMG yet can pass 2 papers out of 3 in her last sitting. I really salute her as auditor's working life is lifeless. Although she said that she is lucky because her senior let her attend all the classes and allowed her to take long study leave. Other can so y not me? I still have 3 months to go, must fully utilise my time to prepare and study hard. Success comes from hardwork and determination.

Is time to prepare my time table for final. My target, settle my ACCA asap and see me in Singapore. Beside that, must pray hard that i manage to get job after december too.

Is time to work hard...........study hard.........and of course play hard after exam :p

暗恋

好闷啊！！天气真的热死人了。。快下雨啦。。
无聊的扭开收音机，正好播着杨丞琳的暧昧，好久没听这首歌了，感觉还不错。

歌词：

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
不能用恨你却不住结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
停在这里

听着，听着让我想起了我们姐妹帮的话题-暗恋。。
好久没有这种感觉了， 结果我们讨论了许多如果。
明明是有了感觉但是考虑了很多问题结果还是往肚子里吞了，为何不敢表白？原因是担心还是面子？有句名言，世上最遥远的距离不是天涯海角，而是我站在你面前，而你不知道我爱你。好悲伤啊。

我的中文部落格

哈，有一股兴奋的感觉，因为我终于可以用中文打字。。可是我的速度可说是像乌龟一样慢，可能是太久没有练习了。

其实，我并没有特别的事情想分享， 只想试试我的software :p

No title

I can't think of any title for this blog, as i just drop by to write something and not really have any specific topic to write.

I think my life become very messy after my result. Not i'm in low morale again but have to replan everything. I always think of work in Singapore after i grad but i start to worry that it is too far from me. I really hope that all subjects can be passed smoothly after that. Anyway, i've no choice but have to work in next semester to retake those subject i fail in my attemp. Hope that god listen to my prayer and don't upset me for another time.

Recently, there's lot of good and bad news around my friends. 1 of my long times good fren already found her so called "Mr. Right", but she looks down after together with him. Doesn't know what happen actually, just hope that she will recover soon and settle her problems. Maybe she cares too much of the bomoh's words --> he is not her right 1.

One of my unimate is very sad recently, even can't sleep well at night. She told me that she keeps on crying until fall zz or has sleepless night sometime. Thing happened after she left Penang. I think should say that problem occurs even she still here. She is facing big problem with her long time boyfriend and having "cold war". We would like to help her, but we can't do anything..hope that she will relief herselves after sometime. Furthermore, your relationship with your superior can be improved. I don't like politic in office at all.

Not only them, actually i'm facing some problems too. When people grows older, the problem we face become more and more. Doraemon can bring me to my happy old time? Ha..dreaming..
People grows older should face the problems bravely instead of avoiding the problem and indecisive.

I tell myself, you sure can handle it!!!!!!!!!!! Same to my fellow friends.

ACCA result is going to release on 18-8-2008

Today is 17-8-2008, 18-8-2008 will be coming in few hours time, it mean that the moment i scare most is coming. I'm so nervous, i scare that i can't face the fact. I start to feel that tears in my eye even though i still waiting for the result.

This is not the first time i take result, had been gone through it in UPSR, PMR, SPM and university time. I still remember that i checked whether i managed to get first class or not for particular semester last time in university but things totally different now. My target is pass but i still totally no confidence at all.

ACCA really makes my life crazy. Ha! It might due to i've stop studying for 4 years after i graduate. I totally lost myself now, even feel curious about my decision to further ACCA. Is it worth to sacrifice my work to come back for my study. I still in part 2 due to i'm not accounting student and i already feel so tough, how i go to my part 3. If everything go smooth, i'll take it in next semester. Hope that i can go through it.

I'm so nervous due to i can't perform well in my exam. It is really a tough exam and i salute those top scorer and those who pass every paper through 1 sitting.

I should face it bravely, if i fail (most probably) just try for 2nd attempt. I believe that as long as there is a will, success will be yours. Pray hard that somebody will employ me in future and do my professional development.

Hope that this world got miracle. Praying hard....I already tried and did my best. No regret! U can make it! Don't ever give up! Success comes from hard work and determination.

Lee Chong Wei - Our Heroes

Bravo Lee Chong Wei! He secured at least a silver for Malaysia in this Beijing Olympic 2008. He defeated South Korean player Lee Hyun Il in 3 games, 21-18, 13-21, 21-13.

He has secured RM300K in his pocket currently, if he manage to win Malaysia's first gold medal, he will become millionaire after this Olympic. Government will grant RM1M to the player who win gold medal.

The game was very exciting and interesting. He performed not so good in 2nd game and made a lot of mistakes, luckily he managed to hold back his emotion and beat the Korean player. Overall, he already made Malaysia proud of him.

Congratulation to Lee Chong Wei, must perform well in final and beat Lin Dan (i think should be him). All Malaysian has fate in you and you make us proud. Lee Chong Wei forever! We will support you on 17 Aug 2008 final.

who cares my feeling..

I put all my phone in silence mode and keep it into my drawer after i received a sms. I'm very unhappy after i received the sms. I'm really very tired with it already. I even feel very unfair, why you have to interrupt my freedom to make friends. I have to explain to you every guy in my friendster, facebook and phone book.

I'm not a kid and i know what i'm doing. I never ask you anything about the girls in your phone book and even those gals who express their feeling towards you because i believe you. I always very obedient and answer you the questions one by one, even after the incident. I thought that you will respect me one day but i feel that it is in my dream only. I totally can't imagine that things will become worse than last time, even comment in blog also can make you feel uncomfortable.

Don't know what to say and continue..Hope that this is the last time i tell you about this, feel tired to tell you again and again. If i wan to betray our relationship, it can happen long long time ago. Moreover, after the incident, i think i no need to answer you those questions anymore. If you wan to accept the girl as your new gf, just go ahead..you no need to ask me because you have the right to choose.

Please respect me as a human not your pet.

Nuffnang Gift Ideas

Actually i also not sure what happen around, just feel bored and surfing around without any purpose. Since i saw this contest and feel bored so just drop by to write something. Good entertainment beside Olympic game :p

I choose this wind trial computer backpack because i feel that it is useful to our daily life. Nowadays, computer plays an important role in our life and occupied most of our time in work and home. The most attractive part is blogger can carry their laptop around and write down every moment that he/she would like to share with others..haha...

I feel that I'm disturbing around only :p

Explaination...

Someone told me that we must write something related to themselves in their blog, however for my opinion, blog shouldn't just restricted to themselves but is a place for us to express our feeling, sharing etc.. Actually i doesn't like restricted rules and regulation because it only limit ourselves to a box. Imagination can make our live better..if doesn't have imagination and innovation, i think we still live on the tree, without electricity...

Ha, i just voice up my opinion.

(p/s: i think i will get scolded soon :p)

中国普通话VS马来西亚华语

Found this fwd mail in my mailbox. It's very funny but it's true. Typical "rojak" languageage of Malaysian.

中国人 ：今晚你有空吗？我没空！
马来西亚华人 ：今晚你得不得空？我不得空！

中国人 ：饼干受潮了…。
马来西亚华人 ：饼干'漏风'了…。

中国人 ：从上海去苏州要多少个小时？
马来西亚华人：从上海去苏州要几粒钟？

中国人 ：难道他不可以来吗？
马来西亚华人：你不给他不来啊？

中国人 ：周杰伦不喜欢穿内裤。
马来西亚华人：周杰伦不喜欢穿底裤。

中国人 ：我一向都是这样的
马来西亚人：我一路来都是这样的啦

中国人 ：我的手机掉进沟渠了。
马来西亚华人：我的手机掉进龙沟了。

中国人 ：这样你不是很不值得吗？
马来西亚华人：这样你'马'很不 '歹'？
中国人 ：你真是聪明！
马来西亚华人：你真是pan nai！(源自马来语pandai，聪明的意思)

中国人 ：你安静！
马来西亚华人：你diam diam！(源自马来语diam，安静的意思)

中国人 ：我要去银行取款。
马来西亚华人：我要去银行'按钱'。
中国人 ：为什么？
马来西亚华人：做么？

中国人 ：你很强~
马来西亚华人：你很够力~

中国人 ：明天也叫他一起去吧！
马来西亚华人：明天叫'埋'他一起去！

中国人 ：我很郁闷~~~
马来西亚华人：我很'显'（sien）啊~~~~（'显'比郁闷的境界更高）

中国人 ：你再说我就打你！
马来西亚华人：你再说我就hood你！（有点粗俗的）

中国人 ：你在说什么？
马来西亚华人：你在说sommok？

中国人 ：你不要令我丢脸~
马来西亚华人：你不要'下水'我~

中国人 ：真被你气到…。
马来西亚华人：被你炸到…。

中国人 ：你别乱来~
马来西亚华人：你表乱乱来~

中国人 ：你很无聊
马来西亚华人：你很废

中国人 ：XX你
马来西亚华人：Kanasai（意思是像大便一样，骂人的话）

中国人 ：迫切
马来西亚华人：bek chek

中国人 ：我们一起吃这碗面~
马来西亚华人：我们'公司'吃这碗面~（源自马来语的kongsi，就是一起分享的意思）

中国人 ：我们结婚吧！
马来西亚华人：我们结'分'吧！（'婚'字受粤语影响，所以音不标准）

中国人 ：今天的天气很热~
马来西亚华人：今天的天气热到。。。。。。。。。。。~~~~~~~（'到'字要拉长，然后没有下文了）

中国人 ：哇!
马来西亚华人：哇捞weh!!!!

中国人 ：我受不了他！
马来西亚华人：我behtahan他！