I'm tired!!

Feel so tired after exam but i still hang around in facebook + MSN. I'm sad due to my poor performing in exam. I know my main problem is poor time management. I spend too much time on a part which cause me lack of time for the remaining question. In addition my EQ is not high enough to control my panic.

Although i manage to answer all the question but i don't have confidence on my answer. I just do whatever i feel correct and i can do..

God, please po pi me to get 50%.

No mood to zz, no mood to work...no mood.........

stress......

I'm very stress..stress..stress....

Can i survive? How many obstacles i've to o through? arrhh.......

Back~

I've 1 month not update anything over here. Life starts busy nowadays..Work + study...

Planned to write something here on 090909 but i end up just forget it. :p I remembered that during 060606, i told my friend that i wan to engage in 090909 but i just busy with my work on that day, not even celebrate this special day with my bf :p haha..
Sometime i feel that i'm bad because i always busy with my own stuff and not really spend time with bf, don't wonder his friend claimed that i'm not serious. Ha! Anyway, i'm just not a superman, i can't do everything in 1 time. Just be myself! Prioritise!

I'm not happy

I'm walking at the T-junction..don't know which way gonna be my way. Somebody please give me a hand or show me the road.

123456789

Today, (Friday) the 7th of August 2009, you lived through two unique moments of the Gregorian calendar.

Today afternoon at 12:34:56pm and at 12:34:56am the figures come up as 123456.

The figures 789 are for the date 7th, the month of August 8 and the year 2009.

Run in sequence it becomes 123456789.

You can live through it again if you live for a 100 years from now when it will be 2109, with the same time and date.

Not a new post!

Think of something accidentally..You can bluff the whole world but you can't bluff yourselves. I can tell the whole world that I'm OK and make fun with them..but i know my feeling inside my heart...Deep inside my heart.

Listening to Jazz.....and is time to face the problem POSITIVELY.

Abnormal

Write 2 blogs within few hours..haha..When I don't have mood to write, there are no new post for around a month. :p Mayb I can qualified under abnormal category.

Maybe I'm quite free today and not in good mood. Everybody is happy out there because today is my bro's convocation but I'm alone at home. In this kind of situation, i prefer to stay alone, at least i got chance to cool down and clear my mind. I know I've to wait and can't be keep on pressing myself but I'm just a normal human in certain extend. I scare that I can't handle "double attack".

Stay positive please! Just wait patiently and things might be good and not as worth as I think. Remember what you've read in "the secret"? As long as you think positively then good things will come to you...so you must control your anxiety. Positive! You can choose to have a joyful or unpleasant day. Cheer up~ I can overcome it, I can make it!! Positive!!

If you feel that the more you study then you can release yourselves then just go ahead.

(P/s: For those who want to leave a negative comment, please GO AWAY!)

07.08.09

Today is my bro's convocation. Congrats ken, graduate lo..haha..Feel a bit sad because i fail to attend your convocation but i think it gonna be a great day not only to you but all our family members. We love you!!!

I went for second interview just now. In certain extend, i'm not that honest, ha! Anyway. I blame myself for not selling myself very good. I should perform better. :( What to do, over already..just wait for 2-3 weeks then i'll know the result...God, please po pi me :p

深情我欠得起

good things to share...i still remember that a guy asked me to repay him after i rejected him. I'm very angry that time and feel that know a person like him is the most unlucky incident in my life. Things changed better now but when i see this article, i think of him again- a guy who ask me to repay him!

by 張小嫻

欠了別人的人情，總有一天是要還的吧？天底下沒有免費午餐，只是，人有時會一廂情願，或者心存僥倖，天真過了頭，以為大大小小的人情債沒有需要償還的一天。

你欠的人情有多大，你要還的人情也就有多大。

我不喜歡欠人家人情。深情我欠得起，人情倒是我欠不起的，要欠我寧願欠感情的債。

世上有那麼多的人，誰要你偏偏愛上我？如果是命中注定，這筆債倒不是我欠你，說不定是你前世欠了我呢。前世你是我放生的白狐，今世你在我腳邊廝磨，難得今生可以再見到我，來向我報恩，你該感謝我為你圓夢才是啊。

就算不相信前世今生，愛情又何曾公平？

有些女人埋怨男人耗掉她的青春，話不能這麼說，男人的青春也是青春，保養得不好的男人例外。

愛情永遠沒法衡量誰賺了誰又虧了，兩個人為什麼要恨恨地數傷口，然後說：「我有六十二個傷口，但你只得五十七個！」，相愛的那個過程，你也是享受過的吧？

有一天，緣盡了，不要去計算誰欠了誰。都是自願的，憑什麼說：「如果不是你，我會比現在幸福，會比現在過得好！」這些苦澀而沒意義的話？如果不是我，你也有可能是一片空白。

江湖再見的那日，別問是緣還是債。情本來就是債，只是，我們往往要等到情盡的那天才恍然。

The reason of being a failure..

A always claims that being failure in relationship with people around.I still can't get a job currently is due to economy downturn. Everything has a reason.

Actually i observed A recently, finally i found out the reason. Communication skill. A totally lack of this skill. For this area, no one can help beside yourself. What i can say is beware of your words, every words have been spoken gonna be no return. Art of words is important.

I've told A about this, hope that this can help up a bit. Take care and all the best to you.

(p/s: actually i quite beh tahan sometimes too..wan to slap A)
A, paiseh ya.. :p come, let me slap..haha..

I CAN DO IT!!

Every success person faces a lot of obstacles before they success. It is applicable to my case too. I strongly believe that. It is just the matter of time, I know that I no longer the old me. I equipped myself with better knowledge and understanding compared the previous me. People might dunno about my change, they don't see it not because I'm not good, but is the current economy.

Anyway, the small obstacle don't beat me down. I gonna be stronger and prove to them that they have made a wrong decision.!

Just wait and see the new me! U gonna drop your spec. Stay tuned!

I'm waiting..waiting...wait.........

When my phone ring, I'll become very exciting. I hope that some companies are calling or C calls me. After interviewed on Monday, I'm so keen that HR will call me. I hate this kind of feeling, feel like the poison is killing me softly. I understand that i should enjoy this moment, after i start to work, i gonna miss it very much. Actually I try to enjoy it by watching dramas, hang out with friends and spend my time with him but i know that i can't always in this kind of phenomena. Beside study, i need my career too. I'm not that kind of person that waiting my husband to rear me, good career gives me lot's of satisfaction. I don't mind to go for extra miles, as long as there's good return.

Another time i feel that dizzysoldercrunch will understand my feeling :p Haha..paiseh ya, always talk about you in my blog :p

I tell myself, just do whatever you can do now, god will arrange for me. Stay positive!

Tomorrow is Friday, 1 week gonna over d......and i still waiting..................................wait...........wait.....wait.......

I'm back!!

Yeah..back to my blog!! I've long time don't post any post already.

I would like to say congratulation to dizzysoldercrunch, finally you can walk out from the nightmare. Hope that i can follow your footsteps very soon, keen to have a new life and new start. Wish you all the best in your future undertaking and can kao 1 mui mui zai over there. Keke! :p

Lastly, would like to wish all daddy in these world happy father day :)

Hmm...

Actually i got lots of things to write here..unfortunately I'm damn busy nowadays :( Exam in next month..busy..super busy..Hope that this semester can perform well and pass all my papers. (I'm not greedy :p)

In short, there are lots of happy stuffs and unhappy stuffs. Anyway, I'm quite happy although there are some incidents caused me mad..haha..I'm relief because i'm quite tired with those never ending story. Finally come to the end and can have a brand new days..And it is a wonderful day..yahoo! :p

Wish me full of lucks in next month. God po pi me...

鱼 fish.....

我坐在椅子上
看日出复活
我坐在夕阳里
看城市的衰弱
我摘下一片叶子
让它代替我
观察离开后的变化
曾经狂奔舞蹈
贪婪地说话
随着冷的湿的
心腐化
带不走的丢不掉的
让大雨侵蚀吧
让它推向我在边界
奋不顾身挣扎
如果有一个怀抱
勇敢不计代价
别让我飞
将我温柔豢养
我坐在椅子上
看日出复活
我坐在夕阳里
看城市的衰弱
我摘下一片叶子
让它代替我
观察离开后的变化
曾经狂奔舞蹈
贪婪地说话
随着冷的湿的
心腐化
带不走的留不下的
我全都交付它
让它捧着我在手掌
自由自在挥洒
如果有一个世界混浊的不像话
原谅我飞
曾经眷恋太阳

带不走的丢不掉的
让大雨侵蚀吧
让它推向我在边界
奋不顾身挣扎
如果有一个世界混浊的不像话
我会疯狂的爱上
带不走的留不下的
我全都交付它
让它捧着我在手掌
自由自在挥洒
如果有一个怀抱
勇敢不计代价
别让我飞
将我温柔豢养
原谅我飞
曾经眷恋太阳

wish me luck...

Gonna away for short while and mostly won't update my blog for sometime...Anyway, i need lots of luck in June..Please wish me luck and pray hard for me :)

Not much to write, take care to all my friends. :)

拍拖的一部分

Another story to share...

Mar 18th, 2009 by 張小嫻

好多年前有一天，我住的大廈停電，沒有電梯。那時，剛好有個朋友住在我隔壁那幢大廈，他二話不說就爬上二十幾層樓來找我，然後陪我走下去。走下去容易，爬上來可辛苦了，事隔多年，我已經不記得小個子的他那個氣喘咻咻的模樣，但我感動依然。他是我的舊同事，年紀雖然比我大了一截，但我們一向很談得來，完全沒有男女之情。

我們還是同事的時候，有一次，大夥在電視台熬夜，離開的時候，已經是半夜了。那時，組裡只有我一個女孩子，我住得很遠，他和另一個男同事竟然主動送我回家。他們沒有車，不順路，也沒有義務送我回家，但他們卻願意在寂靜的夜晚陪我坐公車回家。

在他們身上，我看到了男性的光輝。我住的地方並不僻靜，也不危險，即使是後來的那一天，電梯壞了，我自己走下去也不成問題，但他們就是覺得女孩子是需要保護的。

不是每一個男人都是這麼想的。另一個男同事，是我的上司，也是朋友，我們那時是天南地北，無所不談的朋友。一天晚上，我和他，還有另外一男一女四個人熬夜開會。散會時，已經是半夜三點鐘，我和他兩個站在無人的街上一邊等車一邊聊天。一輛計程車駛來，他飛快地打開車門，跟我說了一聲再見就關上車門，丟下我一個人。望著車子絕塵而去的一刻，我真的是當場呆了。

我雖不至於弱質纖纖，看上去也並不楚楚可憐，但我無論如何也不會像女泰山、女黑俠或者女騎警吧？他不是應該把車讓給我，然後等下一部車嗎？

我不要求所有男人都有風度，但是，要是他有風度，我會覺得，這個男人還是不錯的。

所以，那天聽到一個男人說：「女人為什麼覺得男朋友理所當然要送她們回家啊？」我真的以為我聽錯了，我的驚訝不會少於我多年前那個晚上一個人被丟下等另一輛計程車的時候。

男人為什麼不應該送女朋友回家？

要是他怕黑，要是他女朋友比他健碩，他覺得她一個人深夜回家也不會有什麼危險，那麼，他大可以不送。

我不認為男人每一次約會後都應該送女朋友回家。當他還有工作要做，當他第二天要早起，當他很累，女人還是會很體貼地說：「我自己回家可以了，你不要送我。」

這時，他叮囑她：「你到家之後打電話給我。」

那是戀愛中一份甜蜜的叮嚀。

到家之後，她打電話給她，告訴他：「我到家了啊。」

這句話，也是戀愛中最甜蜜的其中一句話。

要是她在預定的時間還沒到家，他會焦急地打電話給她，生怕她出了什麼意外。當她聽到他思念的聲音，她心裡是甜的。

什麼是拍拖？就只是見面吃飯看電影嗎？他送她回家的這部分，不也是拍拖的一部分嗎？回家的路，是尾聲，也是幸福的時刻。

夜已深了，這天晚上，陪你到最後，依依惜別。每一次，我和你，總是說了再見，卻又回頭再看一眼，微笑再說一遍再見。

他總是要看著她走進屋裡才轉身離去，而她一進屋裡總是立刻飛奔到窗前，看著他離去的背影，直到他消失在她的視線裡。

兩個人在一起，就是共同擁有每一次的相聚和每一次離別的背影。

bad temper

My mood always not too good in this week, angry easily...Will angry even a small matter although i don't show it out but i know i bo syok..

What happen to me? I not too sure about the cause but i must control myself.

My Fate...

At first i plan to write this blog in Mandarin because somebody don't know how to read Mandarin, so i won't be teased, but just too lazy to type. My speed is slow. :p Don't worry la..i won't write your story in my blog anymore..so don't worry..steady :p

I gonna attend another interview on this Thursday (at first it is schedule on next Monday). This is my old company, i should feel comfortable with it but i feel a bit nervous. I start to worry that the interviewer might persecute me as I'm ex staff. Worry that how much they might pay me. They told me that mostly they will give me my old basic. Haih..Actually i don't care so much things already..The economy is poor now, i can't be so choosy. I just hope that i can pass my ACCA smoothly. I really scare that i'll be part of unemployed.

Haih..Just be positive thinking! Believe what i've read in the Secret. Law of Attraction and Law of Gravity! With positive mindset and feeling then your wish will comes true. SY, u can made it!! Believe yourself! Good Luck to me!!! Friends, please give me lots of support!

p/s: i ate a lot of crab..dunno will itchy and reddish spot on my body or not..scare scare...

Missing you...

Maybe i read a lot of articles about love recently..that's why i found that my recent blogs mostly related to love matter..Anyway,i'm not like the dizzysoldercruch's comment..haha..Thanks on your caring :p

Yeah..another story to share...Of course this is my idol 張小嫻's work, an old post. :)

你說：「想像假如我現在已經沒有什麼想愛的人，那該多好？不用受牽掛之苦，也不用傷心。」

不用受牽掛之苦，可也沒有牽掛的甜蜜。

有一個可以牽掛的人，畢竟是幸福的。

愛上一個人，也就是從今開始有了一個牽掛的人，也被人牽掛著。他的身影總是盤踞在你心頭，你會每天想起他很多遍，想著他這一刻正在做什麼，你會等他的電話，你會想聽到他的聲音，想挨著他的肩膀，想見到他的臉，想伸手摸摸他的鼻子，想知道他今天過得好不好。

當他不在身邊，在另一個城市，你總是時時刻刻惦著你和他之間的時差，用思念把時差補滿。

愛情，就是彼此永不止息的思念，是永遠放不下的牽掛，是心甘情願的牽絆。

你問：「可不可以不要牽掛一個人？那種滋味太苦了。」

苦的，不是牽掛，而是沒有應答的牽掛。當你牽掛他的時候，他並沒有牽掛你。他從來不像你牽掛他那樣牽掛著你。

苦的，是沒有歸途的牽掛，從此以後，他牽掛的是另一個人。後來的一天，你牽掛的，也將是另一個人。

曾經眷戀的身影已然遠去，但我們永遠不會忘記牽掛著一個人的那份深情，不會忘記當時的自己。

愛裡的甜蜜與苦楚，說的往往是同一句話。

一起的時候，你甜絲絲地問他：「你有沒有想我？」

他微笑回你：「你說呢？我怎麼會沒有想你？」

分手的時候，你流著淚問：「你有沒有想我？」

有？沒有？有又怎樣？沒有又怎樣？是不是如果有的話，會沒那麼苦？

If manage to found somebody you like and he/she likes you as well, it will be a great and happy incident. On the other hand, lovesick will be suffering, because no matter how much you miss him, he won't know or appreciate that.

When i care for somebody, i'll send him text to assure that he is fine over there. When i fall in love, i'll miss him from day to night. A simple text from him already can cheer up my day. A simple word - miss you already made me in sweet mode. Ha!

Recently a guy told me that i'm important for him and would like to further our relationship. I totally get shock..Of course we are not together at last. Actually i quite like him last time and always hope that he will notice about me one day. After years, my dream had come true but i only realise that i no longer miss him and i can't feel that his feeling towards me. Maybe my mind is overwrite my heart for the another time.

I still looking for the feeling that you asking me "do you miss me?" and i reply "I miss you" from the bottom of my heart. A simple word already cause me happy for the day as i know you miss me over there too. :)

Miss the right person. Please don't miss your ex after break up. Ha!

會不會遇到很愛很愛的人？

I fall in love with 張小嫻's article recently...found this article..it makes me think a lot of things after reading it..share share with you all here...

算命師說，一個人什麼時候結婚、什麼時候分手，都能算出來。

真有那麼神奇嗎？ 好奇的我禁不住問：「要是當一個算命師算出這個客人什麼時候結婚，也同時看到她將來會離婚，那麼，他會誠實告訴她嗎？」

算命師說：「會老實告訴客人啊！要不要幫你算算？」

呵呵，我不算命。

要是知道會分手，我也許還是會跟這個人戀愛。但是，要是早知道會離婚，我為什麼還要結婚？為什麼要麻煩自己、麻煩別人，也麻煩了兩家人？

明知道會分手，還是要愛這個人，因為，你享受那個過程。可我從來沒聽過一個離了婚的人說：「我享受那個過程。」

明知道會分手而還是跟這個人相愛，是浪漫。但是，有哪個笨蛋明知道會離婚卻還是跟這個人跑去結婚？

當我們長大了，當我們不那麼年輕了，我們終於很傷心地發現，人是會跟自己不愛的人結婚。然而，即使是這樣的人，也沒想過要離婚。

有些人比較幸運，一生中很愛的不只一人。另一些人沒那麼幸運，一生中說不上很愛很愛一個人，但最後還是跑去結婚了。

人到底會不會遇到很愛很愛的人？要一直等下去，還是乾脆不等了？因為時間和青春也不等人。

愛情到底是不是宿命的？

這些問題，從來沒有答案。這些問題，也不是用來回答，而是去經歷的。

After i read this, i think of 1 person, he just married, but the bride is not somebody he loves. We asked him that why he would like to choose this path as he still young. He replied that because he has no chance to get his ms right. Feel sorrow to listen this but we know that he is happy now and enjoying his marriage life. On the other hand, we not dare to ask the gal why she marry a guy which she never meet before...

The society is different with old time, but the percentage of single person become higher and higher from year to year especially in advance country. Is this a trend for current environment? Normally most of the successful woman are single nowadays, is this due to the guy feel shame to after a strong woman or woman become more and more materialistic?

愛情到底是不是宿命? I don't know.. If you found somebody you love, just express your feeling, no matter what's the result, whether is what you expected or not, at least you try..no regret! :) Sometime, those sifu words can change a people's life..believe or not up to you. My friend told me that face and palm reading are forbidden in Buddhism. Due to this, believe yourselves and create your own future.

Congrats!

From facebook, i knew that you already found your ms right. Congratulation! She is a pretty gal and fashionable. Glad to hear that both of you have same thought and goals..I think with this characteristic, both of you can together long. :)

Continue..

After i finished the blog, i found this article, written by 張小嫻. Cut and paste some part of the article. Quite true..I feel that this is not only from gal's view but from guy's view too..Just treat is as a sweet sweet dream then will happy always.

有些夢，最好永遠不要醒來。

我們都難免做著夢。有些女人以為她愛的男人天才橫溢，只是懷才不遇，時不我予。這個夢最好不要醒吧？

有些女人以為她愛著的男人最愛是她，這一生，他只愛她一人。這個夢，也最好不要醒吧？

有些女人以為自己生活在幸福裡。這個夢，也是不要醒來的好。

我們有時會嘲笑別人的夢，甚至忍心戳破別人的美夢，卻不認為自己也做著夢。

大夢誰先覺？

人都害怕做噩夢，美夢卻也許更難消受。噩夢最可怕的是醒過來的一刻，然後你會慶幸，只是一場夢。然而，一旦從美夢中醒來，看到自己一直沒看到的現實，人生的信念是不是一下子全都崩潰了？

可不可以，就當我們都住在一個做夢的星球上，我們坐在這個星球的表面上，快樂地晃著兩條腿，看著日升月落，看著漫天散落的星塵，並不知道是夢？我們是別人的夢，別人也在我們的夢裡，那多好啊。

I just like u alone!!

My friend told me that his gf found a new 1 already and is time for him to let go and get a new one. Although this is just a simple words but made me think a lot of things..make me think of all those 山盟海誓 made during the courtship, I just will like you alone no matter what happen..bla bla bla...

When the outcome is not what you expected, then people will tend to calculate..It let me think of one of the phrase spoken by 窝可 in gem of life. His role in this drama is a guy who don't care whether his dream gal likes him or not, as long as he can stay there and do something for her then he will satisfy, that's all. But until the end of drama. he starts to calculate already..and said this phrase - 其实我跟其他人一样，我一边谈情一边在计算..Actually every human is like that..That's no right or wrong..At least you know what you are doing, that's enough.

Conclusion is when the relationship comes to the end, all the promises become zero. Nothing to sad actually, just go forward.. Some people might get a new 1 fast, some slow..Some even will simply pat toh with guy/gal who likes them when there are single...A lot of people out there with different characteristic..What i not appreciate most is ...aiya..not my matter also..

Friend, just continue your journey :) Don't think of the fool decision you have made last time, at least you enjoy all the process and moment together in the past.. No regret! Be a better person, i know you can make it :) Create your Malaysia Dream ;)

I'm not happy

I can't think of any reason y i'm unhappy..but yet i'm unhappy now :(
why???

涂鸦

今天身体有点不舒服 。。。 觉得有些闷闷的。。

又中Tag啦，哈哈哈！I think this is the hottest tag in facebook now. Ha..Copy n paste over here n start to play this game..anyone who view my blog are welcome to join this loop :p

1. If you could spend one Ringgit in 5 minutes, what would you spend on?
Choc or ice-cream :P

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Relax :)

3.if you are given a chance to reverse your life,will you back to the past?
过去的就让它去吧, i look for future 1..keke..

4. What would u do if u were to die tomorrow?
Have a nice dinner together with my family and friends.

5. Is there someone in your heart right now?
Of course! Family...

6. Do you feel loved in this world?
Yes, always. My family and friends love me so so so so much :)

7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Family and my friends

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
Rest and travel.

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
No, timid n useless fellow :(

10. List 5 things that u like in a guy/girl.
Nice, polite, humble, understanding, funny, knowledgeable

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
每天都安康 n happy always :)

12. What do you think is your purpose in life?
Life is short, enjoy it :)

13. Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?
don't want to waste my time and energy.

14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Dunno leh..so much nice food out there..

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Happy, i always appreciate :)

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
bcome smarter :P

17. What is the most prized possession that you wish you can bring to Heaven?
I believe everything are available there, leave it for my family and friends.

18. Name one love song that you have in mind and why?
Angel brought me here..my forever love song...

19.What makes you feel happy?
A lot of things..from minor to big 1..

20.How much you will told the people if he/she ask you how much is you ?
My life is priceless, same to everybody out there...

Complicated feeling..

My good old friend visit me again. Ha! Just tell myself to do n try my best...It's useless to think too much...Wish i fast fast receive phone call...pray hard neh..wish me luck...Wish good luck fast fast come to me..good luck come..i love u so much...haha..siao d :p

Since yesterday night, i keep on sing this song..an old song...Actually i not really like this song..but i can't stop my brain to stop thinking this song..weird..

你是我的幸福吗?

总是相信有更好的,
会在前方,
就不顾一切的飘洋过海去,
用尽一生寻找
倦了累了渴望拥抱,
却找不到,
才忽然想起你还在我身后,
静静等着我,给我依靠
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人如此忧郁,
爱情渐渐模糊,
你的付出,
我总不够清楚,
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人变得忧郁,
爱上你不再怀疑,
只想对你说,我愿意..
总是相信有更好的,
会在前方,就不顾一切的飘洋过海去,
用尽一生寻找
倦了累了渴望拥抱,
却找不到,
才忽然想起你还在我身后,
静静等着我,给我依靠
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人如此忧郁,
爱情渐渐模糊,
你的付出,
我总不够清楚,
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人变得忧郁,
爱上你不再怀疑,
只想对你说,我愿意..
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人如此忧郁,
爱情渐渐模糊,
你的付出,
我总不够清楚,
你是我的幸福吗?
为何幸福让人变得忧郁,
爱上你不再怀疑,
只想对你说,我愿意

The curious case of Benjamin Button

I personally feel that this is the best picture for the year. MUST WATCH. It just amazing!!!!!!! I watched til tears dropped. It is so touching...

Spend 2 hours 45 min for this movie when u free..worth to watch!! 5/5! :p

The curious case of Benjamin Button

Very sien, would like to watch this movie but it only available in GSC, somemore not all GSC are are showing this movie. Only 2 cinemas in Penang show it. Lousy lousy lousy.......According to newspaper and friends, this movie is one of the MUST WATCH movie in 2009. If not mistaken, it has 17 nomination for Oscar (not sure, have to check) and it rated 7.5/10.

Haha..my friend said that this movie is 极力推荐，再出完奶力推荐！棒！haha..a bit weird recommendation :P

"I was born under unusual circumstances." And so begins "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button," adapted from the story by F. Scott Fitzgerald about a man who is born in his eighties and ages backwards: A man, like any of us, who is unable to stop time. We follow his story set in New Orleans from the end of World War I, into the 21st century, following his journey that is as unusual as any man's life can be. Director by David Fincher and starring Brad Pitt and Cate Blanchett with Taraji P. Henson, Tilda Swinton, Jason Flemyng, Elias Koteas and Julia Ormond, "Benjamin Button," is a grand tale of a not so ordinary man and the people and places he discovers along the way, the loves he finds, the keys of life and the sadness of death, and what lasts beyond time.

(Source: Warner Brothers)

On the other hand, the below is the detailed storyline.

The elderly Daisy (Cate Blanchett) is on her deathbed with her daughter Caroline (Julia Ormond) in a New Orleans hospital as Hurricane Katrina approaches in August 2005. Daisy tells the story of a blind clockmaker named Gateau (Elias Koteas), who was commissioned to create a clock to hang in the New Orleans train station. After receiving news of his son's death in World War I, he continued work on his clock, but intentionally designed it to run backward, in the hope that it would bring back those who died in the war. After her cryptic story, Daisy asks Caroline to read aloud from a diary containing photographs and postcards written by Benjamin Button (Brad Pitt). Caroline begins to read as the story transitions to Benjamin's narration.

On November 11, 1918, just as the people of New Orleans are celebrating the end of World War I, a baby boy is born with the appearance and physical maladies of an elderly man. The mother of the baby dies shortly after giving birth, and the father, Thomas Button, takes the baby and abandons him on the porch of a nursing home. Queenie (Taraji P. Henson) and Tizzy (Mahershalalhashbaz Ali), a couple who work at the nursing home, find the baby. Queenie, who is unable to conceive, decides to take the baby in as her own, against Tizzy's wishes. She names the baby Benjamin.

Over the course of the story, Benjamin begins to biologically grow younger. In 1930, while still appearing to be in his seventies, he meets a young girl named Daisy (Elle Fanning), whose grandmother lives in the nursing home. The children play together and listen to Daisy's grandmother read from a storybook.

A few years later, Benjamin goes to work on a tugboat on the docks of New Orleans for Captain Mike (Jared Harris). In their free time, the captain takes him to brothels and bars. For the first time, Benjamin meets Thomas Button, who does not reveal that he is Benjamin's father. Later, Benjamin leaves New Orleans with the tugboat crew for a long-term work engagement; Daisy asks him to send her postcards from his travels, which Benjamin does.

During a stay in Russia, Benjamin meets a British woman named Elizabeth Abbott (Tilda Swinton) and falls in love with her; Daisy is visibly hurt to receive this news via postcard. Elizabeth is already married, but she has an affair with Benjamin. The fling ends the day after the Pearl Harbor attack, when Elizabeth abruptly departs.

Benjamin gets caught up in World War II when Captain Mike's boat and crew are enlisted by the United States Navy. After engaging a German U-boat in battle, Captain Mike and most of the sailors perish. After this, Benjamin, after seeing a hummingbird, sees death in a different way, as opposed to the retirement home where death seemed more natural.

In 1945, Benjamin returns to New Orleans, and learns that Daisy has become a successful dancer in New York City. When he travels there to meet Daisy at a performance, he finds Daisy has fallen in love with a fellow dancer, and tries to accept that their lives have separated.

Benjamin again meets Thomas Button, who is dying. Thomas reveals to Benjamin that he is his father and bequeaths all of his assets to Benjamin, including the house and the family button-making business. Benjamin eventually makes peace with his father before the elder Button dies.

Daisy's dance career is ended by a car accident in Paris. When Benjamin goes to see her, Daisy is amazed at his youthful appearance, but frustrated at her own injuries, turns him away.

In 1962, Daisy returns to New Orleans and meets Benjamin again. Now the same physical age, they fall in love and move in together. They experience the 1960s together, in large part blissfully but increasingly aware of Benjamin growing younger while Daisy grows older.

After Daisy gives birth to a girl, Caroline, Benjamin, believing he cannot be a father to his daughter due to his reverse aging, and not wanting to burden Daisy with having to raise two children, sells his belongings, and leaves them to Daisy and Caroline before leaving them both to travel the world.

Reading this account in the hospital room of 2005, Caroline learns that Benjamin is her father. She is upset that Daisy took such a long time to inform her of this, but finds that Benjamin sent her a postcard from everywhere for each of her birthdays expressing his love for his daughter.

In 1980, Benjamin, now looking like a young man, returns to meet Daisy in her dance studio. The aging Daisy is now married to Robert Williams, a kind man who supports her well, to Benjamin's relief. Daisy introduces Benjamin to Robert and the 12-year-old Caroline as a long-time family friend. Daisy and Benjamin then meet privately in Benjamin's hotel where they share their passion for each other, but they mutually realize that Daisy has become too old for Benjamin.

Benjamin departs again and continues to grow younger. One day Daisy receives a phone call from social workers. They inform her that they found Benjamin - now a young pre-teen just hitting puberty - living in a condemned building, and that they called her because they saw her name all over his diary. The social workers believe that he has dementia as he sometimes forgets that he had just eaten and cannot remember Daisy or much of his past. Daisy moves into the nursing home where Benjamin grew up and takes care of him as he becomes a confused 5-year-old boy with a growing temper.

In 2002, Mr. Gateau's old clock is removed from the train station. Shortly afterward, in the spring of 2003, the now-physically infant, 85-year-old Benjamin dies in Daisy's arms. At the moment before Benjamin dies, Daisy claims to have seen in his eyes that he still remembered her.

In the 2005 hospital room, the hurricane raging outside downs the electrical system. As Caroline briefly leaves the room, Daisy passes away, her wish of seeing Benjamin again seemingly answered by a hummingbird hovering outside the storm-drenched windows. Against the sounds of the city's emergency sirens and reports of breached levees, the backwards clock is shown in a basement, still working, as floodwaters envelope the storage room where it is kept.

Enjoy the movie!!!

Play with camera..

Paddington bear..cute?

dunno

是我小气或什么..算! NJ Star got problem, change back to English. I feel that people who hate you won't be nice to you... Thanks anyway, that's all i can say..basically i've no comment...

Received a funny call today, angry me without reason and make me blur..haha..No comment also..Maybe today is not my day :p

Feb 16

Feb 17, 12.47am - Finally the moment i scare most is over...phew! Received a lot of sms and calls from friends. Ha! feel that there are equally excited as me. Maybe i keep on mentioning about Feb 16.

Today i help my friend to settle a problem, although just a normal phone call but i really hope that i manage to help. Anyway, who can help me now?? Is ok, since i wait for so long d, few more weeks is not a problem for me. Just use the time to study. I will keep this momentum until end. Hope you well..from bottom of my heart.

Today happen a not so happy incident, hmm...currently still don't know how to figure out. Don't know..don't want to think of it, time will tell me. Anyway, i want to say the power of word. 1 word already can affect my mood. Maybe..maybe....this is what we called power.

Recently i chat with wendy's bf a lot..haha.. If you want me to comment, i can say that he is a cute guy but i know you 2 already cannot stand with me as i like to tease you 2 so much. haha..

Listen to the song and think of you...

:p :p ...

Today is 15th February, Valentine day is over...Erm...actually these few days happen some things but lazy to write..i even lazy to transfer the pictures i took yesterday to my pc. Haha..bad girl...

Basically 13 Februray (black friday) happened some creepy incident here..think of it still feel a bit cold..but no mood to share...oklah..wait for my mood :p But ee get the first hand info when it happened..ok, dun think of it anymore.

Feb 14, Valentine day..It was a busy day for me and quite tired. Took some photos only, will transfer to my pc when i free. For those who keen to see those photos..paiseh la ya :p I think only my bro can't wait to see, he even send me sms. Basically i can say Gurney was jam, luckily we reached there around 6+.

Oklah...upload my pics and write the scary story when i really got mood :p

Gem of life

This drama gonna end by this Friday. I would like to do some prediction on the ending based on the 77 episodes i watched so far. See how's the accuracy of my prediction..

Sylvia
I think she gonna together with Ko Chiong Seng.

Constance
From the preview of Astro On Demand, she looks like gonna turn bad at last so she might be a powerful and influential woman but Terrance feel that she just like Jessica and won't be together.

Jessica
I predict she might follow Martin's footstep, sot jor.. Haha..

Elise
Start her new life in US. Wo Ho and Will gonna forgive her.

Wo Ho and Ah Will
Continue with their current life, work as usual.

Haha..the answer is out there on this friday. See i got potential to be scrip writer or not.haha :p

Goodbye~

My parent went to send my relative's last journey in life..but i'm at home..Actually he is my close relatives but i rarely see them even don't know who are them. Basically just know this person..that's all..

I heard my mom said that they rarely contact with my grandma because of arguments but my mom also not sure about the content. No matter how, would like to show my last respect to him.

Goodbye to the past and have a new beginning.

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Other matter,

Yesterday night, i clean up my pc and delete some of the files..Goodbye to all those files..after empty the recycle bin, it will totally out of my sight. Of course, there are those useless things for me anymore..old files.. Maybe like to store a lot of sampah last time :p I won't see the files again.. (I say this to my roomie, but she said ada maksud tersirat, haha...)

心机

我有心机的做了一件事, 我成功了但 like not so good (NJStar got problem, continue in english). :p Actually i don't know that i can success easily because i always be the victim. Maybe i know the person weakness well. Hmm..this gonna be another knowledge to learn. Although i always feel that 心机 is not a good thing, but i did it today..It's ok, i get the answer i want to know and know what to do next.. Actually is he taught me how to play this game, he used this technique on me first..Is this called revenge? I don't know..Just don't step on woman's tail..君子报仇十年未晚..

Compare with other, my knowledge in the area still shallow, want to continue? Yes, i'll, to protect myself..Sorry to say that...Lastly, please not ever try to step on me, i'll let you die, FOR SURE!!!!!!!!!!! To some people, there's no FORGIVE this word..

REMEMBER WHAT YOU DID ON ME, I'LL MAKE SURE THAT YOU PAY THE PRICE!!!

Last day of CNY

Today is last day of CNY, nothing special for me. I just study and watch tv at home. Feel glad that i take up my book again. This is what i promise myself, although i keen to get job soon but i've to pia pia pia at the same time. I stick to my original plan, no shopping, no movie (don't have any nice movie actually :p) and i really made it. So, my wallet still safe :p

What happen and what i've done in this 1 week..hmm..abk replied my mail already..so basically need to wait for their reopen. Knew a cute guy in Ong's open house on last Saturday (Wendy's potential bf) :p Ha! the funniest time was the conference chat, keke..Wendy sure mad with us. Ya, Dan became daddy already, he seemed happy plus a bit complicated feeling, maybe because of the big responsibility. Congrats to him ;)

Still remember that i wrote a blog regarding expiry date before and i've this feeling again. Share the story with friends, although they feel that his action is a bit..., but we all feel that this is the best solution for him. We all are adults and know our path to go and choose. If we really meet accidentally on the street, i know what to do next as i'll do what he asked for. Ee commented it correctly actually..haha..Good in evaluation guy. Ha..

Ee will start to work in S'pore in April. All the best to her and wait for me. Ee, waiting for you to bring me over :p HE, CC, meet you all there. :) Elaine, miss you but still can't fulfill our promise :p

Sad mode..

Although this is nothing to be sad but should be happy...but i'm sad now...Don't know how to say the feeling..just take it as a lesson..Anyway, today is a good lesson for me, and let me know that everything comes not easy, they are a lot of things to improve and learn...As long as don't give up, success will be yours. :)

Feb 1

Today is Feb 1, is the first day for me to concentrate on my study again. This is what i promise myself before CNY and i going to implement it. My motto, success comes from hard work and motivation. He always use this phrase to motivate me last time, although we no longer couple but feel happy that we still can be friend. Actually i feel surprise to receive his phone call from Singapore. The phone call really made me so warm and touch as i know that we already put the past aside and we will be friend. During CNY time we continue to have conflict due to my hectic schedule but everything is over. Maybe this time we really settle our problem. :) He knows what is important for me and what i pursue in my life. A lot of people might not agree with me but i know what i'm doing and what is important for me.

Both my sis and bro backed to their "house" again. Just send my bro back, while my sis backed yesterday. This year CNY is a very memorable and happy CNY, my sis didn't back for CNY last year due to her job over there, so we feel very happy for the reunion. :) The days are short, but we really enjoy it especially on Friday. We have a lot of laughter and food. Ha! But i've a bit sad that time because the moment we together gonna be shorter and shorter from the moment onwards. On 31 Jan early morning 6am+, my sis went to KL and depart to Newcastle eventually. While waiting for her flight in KLIA, she called us again, have a short talk with her. Ha..we are so old already but my bro and i still "grab" her ang pow which she forget to take :p childish! I purposely teased her over the phone because she can't do anything d. Keke..

We took some photos and video during CNY, have to ask from relatives. Beh tahan with my biao ge, he likes to take video and those pics which we are not aware. Those pics really very funny and geli :p but i can see that my grandma are happy to see those pictures. All her grandchild are healthy and happy :)

No matter how, everything is over and have to back to my journey again. This holidays is really busy for me, i don't have time to meet my friends at all except i went to colleague's open house yesterday. Ha! Sob sob..sorry Mei Sia and my fellow friends, meet you all next time la. Although i no time to meet you all this time but my heart is always there. Miss ya :) Hoping for the best, we are the BEST :)

Illusion

This is a fact or just an illusion? Sometime the thing we see might not be the fact. That's why there's magic in this world. Since we know that this is just a magic, why so many people still wan to go see it? Is this due to people's curiosity?

There's a lot of thing which we don't understand. I also don't understand but i want to know it, because i want to know the reason.

Aiya..

Hmm..learn a lesson today..next time dun simplified everything, sometime what you feel is correct or nothing 1 but this might not acceptable for other. Sorry for the wrong message. Anyway, i know what to do in future. Ya, sometime human is complicated and must be hard a bit sometime. No mean no, yes mean yes, don't have maybe.

Have to think of how to face this in future. Anyway everything had been clarified and settled. No mean No NO NO NO NO NO................

男人女人一样可怕

我又写blog了。我相信我写了这篇文章该会惹人讨厌但这都是发生在我四周的事。我的朋友失恋了。一位拍拖多年的男友因爱上了别的女生而选择分手。可悲的是那男的欠女的一笔不少的钱但那男生拒绝偿还因为在 courtship 里，男的花了不少钱在女的身上如旅费，名牌包包，手表等。我觉得那男的太小气了，那些钱是他 willing to spend on her, 而不是女的逼他。他没想到那女的为了借他钱而选择 credit card cash advance，为了他而负债累累但那负心汉却一走了之。幸亏女的家境不错，债已清可是那笔钱已是她在 Australia 一年的学费了。我们几个姐妹去探望了她，她已经慢慢康复了。。要快点站起身。

那天的夜晚，我们在黑夜里谈了许久。。我们都觉得爱情太没安全感了，说来就来，说走就走。正如张小娴之名言要做个独立的女生，那样才不怕被他人欺负。她的妈妈也教了我们，身为女友或老婆也不要有“钱的problem” 在没有爱情的夫妻，钱或孩子就会扮演重要的觉角色。(不知道我在写什么，总之一言难竟)

故事还未结束但有些懒惰再继续，我的打华语字 speed too slow 了：P

(to be continue..)

女人真可怕

哈！今天我才认为女人真可怕，千万别得罪女人。今天我无意间看见了我的ex和他
现任女友的照片，心里有了一些的不平衡。其实我和他已成为朋友，有时还能说能
笑，还能一起去逛街，我也清楚知道他已不是我要的对象。那纯脆是年少时的初
，但看见那个女的不禁让我想起他当时的无情，选择了她而放弃了我。
该生气的应该是那男生啊，为何我要不爽那女人？也许我认为她是我当时的情敌吧！
可笑的是那已是陈年往事.

算了吧！他和她也在一起多年，我相信她才是他的命中天女。我应该祝福他们，
也许是一时勾起我的回忆。其实事发多年后我也有了新的对象，也有了新恋情。。
该说在我的生命里发生了许多于他无关的事，为何还要为了小事不爽。。
这时让我想起 Mars Vs Venus 里的一句话，对于旧情人，
女人总是要显得大方得体并且要比他活得更好 :p 也许我现在的生活有些不如意吧。

I still waiting.......

I'm not waiting for CNY. Yes, I'm waiting for calls again..Keep my phone on all the while, hope that my phone will ring..I feel so weird..haha..because the calls are not the call i wan to listen :p (not i choosy..i just too keen to see those no number's call)

I start to worry when i look at my bank book, the money become less and lessor..More headache when i look at the bills which i need to pay. Outsider might think that i'm still good here but nobody knows that my situation. Anyway, i not really complain with any also..maybe will mumble a bit sometime. Ha! How good if money can drop from the sky..dreaming........

It's ok..CNY is coming. Another source of income :p Pray hard that all my relatives will give me big ang pow..but it is mission impossible as the economy is so bad now..hope for miracle.

What else i waiting for...yes, a lot of thing....things that i keen to know yet scare to know the result. hehe..Feb 16. Another thing i'm waiting for is the answer from my ex-boss. I miss abk (nick name of my ex-boss).

Today is tuesday 13 Jan 2009. I hope that everything will end after cny. Don't dwell with the past, still got a lot of things waiting for me to settle..

Don't think negatively....................................................no matter what, i can do it and i can face it :)

blogging...

I've sometime not really write a proper blog..maybe my life just too simple and normal recently, nothing much to write. I fall in love with this old song..quite some time already..i think this song is popular few years ago but not now. Dunno y, i just simply addicted to this song recently. I like the lyrics so much. hehe :p

从开始到现在

如果这是最后的结局
为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了我们告别了单纯
如果重缝也无法继续
失去才算是永恒
惩罚我的认真是我太过天真
难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在也同样落得不可能
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认你是我不该爱的人
如果再见是为了再分
失去才算是永恒
一次新的记忆为何还要再生
难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等从一开始盼到现在也同样落得不可能
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认你是我不该爱的人
拿什么作证
从未想过爱一个人
需要那么残忍才证明爱得深